A week of rug burn

It is coming down to it.  It is starting to hit me that in 13-14 weeks, I will be in India.  With the passing of the first deadline for the deposit, I didn't meet the amount needed in my account.  This is when I have to hit the ground and my knees.  The ticket has already been bought.  The trip is on its way.  I am going, only if I have the money, and I just withdrew all the money in my savings account and still don't even have half of the money needed.  This is me being transparent.  I know that God will provide.  I know.  I'm not complaining.  But, the thought even occurred that even if the money doesn't come in, even if I for some reason am not able to go, God is still God.  Even if I look like a bumbling idiot who people say "didn't pray enough for God to provide", God is still God.  Be praying that this next week is a week of rug burn, that I pray and place my total faith in God like never before.  I need God's resources to pour forth.  May this grow my faith and the faith of those praying with me.  It is time for my knees to hit the rug and my mind be completely set on God, seeking His glory through my unbelief.  I don't know where the money is going to come from, but I am just praying.  

-Sorry if this seems too personal or blunt, but I am being as transparent as possible.